Lately I’ve really been letting life sink in and I’ve really been thinking about it. College is just around the corner and I’m about to start fresh. I cannot wait any longer.
I’ve been taking a lot of time thinking about the people in my life and who’s really worthy of my love, time, and attention. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think so highly of myself that I expect people to bow down at my feet and worship me, that’s not at all what I’m saying. What I mean is that I am tired of wasting my energy on people who give me half of what I do. I’m tired of crying over people who don’t bat an eye at me. I’ve been trying to open my eyes and realize who’s good for me and who I need to let go, maybe forever.
I will admit that I’ve been so much happier lately. Maybe growing apart from people that I thought were my forever friends is a good thing. It’ll be easier to let go once it’s time for the fall and I won’t feel deserted, or like I need to depend on people. I think it will feel good. I’ve realized that the people who love and care for me have been right in front of me the whole time. And I haven’t even seen it. Giving your energy to someone and receiving the same amount back after sinking into an endless abyss of sadness is the most refreshing feeling and at this moment I would not trade it for anything. I’m not going to name names, but thank you to those who have been here for me. Nothing you do goes unnoticed.
You Don't Know Schmitz 