My heart is broken.
Today it was announced that school will be closed for the rest of the year. I’m done. I’m never going back. No wacky olympics. Senior prom. Senior prank. Senior farewell. Maybe not even a graduation ceremony. It all got taken away so fast. I never got a senior solo for choir. I’ve been waiting for all of this since freshman year, and now none of it will happen. I miss the teachers that I complained about. And the ones I said hi to every single day. And the ones that were very close to me. I miss walking through the overcrowded hallways despite how many people I pushed out of the way “because I’m a senior.” I miss everything. I wish more than anything to go back and relive highschool and cherish every detail if I knew all of this was going to happen. I would do anything to wake up minutes before I had to leave, scramble to get ready, jump in my car, still manage to get a coffee from Dunkin, and barely make it to school just one more time.
This doesn’t feel real. I never thought I would see the world like this. Everything hurts. I don’t know the next time I’ll see my friends. I have so many things going through my head but also nothing at the same time. I wish none of this ever happened and everything was back to normal. I miss life.
I don’t want to grow up. I want to be a kid forever.
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